Adventures in Honolulu's Chinatown!

I would consider us adventurers.  

We haven't always been and often Andy & I talk about how much we wish we would have started BEFORE we had kids, you know, when we had money & time.  But I guess we had an early beginning to adult/married life and kind of grew up as we realized we might have to teach our kids how to do the same one day.  So yesterday we had to go into Honolulu to do some paperwork for Andy's new job, [hallelujah!] and our friends happened to be in Chinatown to walk around and we asked to join them.

We hadn't been to Chinatown since before we moved in 2008 so it was fun to see everything again.  So much fresh produce & seafood with great prices, we will definitely be back!

And in true adventurer spirit Andy and Oliver tried chicken feet for the first time.  Mmm gelatinous! 

I love taking our kids to experience new things, and living on a small budget, it never ceases to amaze me how much you can experience with a small amount of money and some blessings from friends.

 [Thank you Sonia for a delicious lunch! :]

We wandered around the markets for awhile, just taking everything in, enjoying being out of the house, the clear skies and the pleasure of good company.  

Tip:  If you go during a state or federal holiday parking in any municipal parking is only $3.00 max!  We happened to go on King Kamehameha Day so lucky us!

[A clock tower with the numbers in Chinese]

After a lot of walking, and picture taking for me.  Ever the snap happy tourist.  We finally made it to our lunch destination of Tai Pan Dim Sum.  I love dim sum, the original "small plates."  It's so fun to share a meal with a lot of people open to anything, passing food and trying whatever looks good.
We did have a bit of trouble with the waitresses since they only spoke Chinese, it took us about 3/4 of our meal to realize we should just order by number.  My favorite were these tasty deep-fried seaweed rolls stuffed with shrimp.  Yum!  Lily can be good at trying foods and did have a Shrimp Shumai but in the end liked her hot dog manapua the best.

[Mango shave milk with lilikoi & condensed milk]

After lunch we strolled back to our cars stopping for a frozen treat at Hula Boba.  They make a tasty shaved ice there that is frozen strawberries [or mangoes] and soy milk.  Such a fun day & our grand total spent came out to $10!  It's always fun to go off the beaten path, experience something new and usually spend a lot less money!  You might get lost, might eat something weird, or not know how to speak the language but that's the fun of it right?

I want to raise my children to be adventurers, to not be afraid to try new things, to not be afraid to fail, because they will, don't we all?  But trying is still worth it.  We can live a life inside but how will we learn about this beautiful world that God has given us?

Sing to the LORD a new song, his praise from the ends of the earth, you who go down to the sea, and all that is in it, you islands, and all who live in them.
Isaiah 42:9-11

Reject panic with praise. Replace worry with worship. Relieve anxiety with adoration. ♥

Reject panic with praise. Replace worry with worship. Relieve anxiety with adoration. ♥

I came across this the other day and fell in love with it immediately.  I have always been a person filled with panic, worry, & anxiety.  And it seems God can sense what I need and put these words in front of me.  I thought about them all last night and today during church, the last few days have been rough for me.  My body just feels tired, my mind almost feels like it's racing and blank at the same time and although nothing is really "wrong" something just doesn't feel right.

Ever since some bad things have happened in my life I can panic pretty easily.  That something is going to go wrong, what will I do, how will I take care of it, etc.  I feel like I've always been a pretty self sufficient person and even after almost 8 years of marriage my natural instinct of, I don't need anybody I can take care of myself, will fight it's way out.  I have a hard time genuinely trusting people because of the panic of when they will leave me, use or hurt me.  So I tried to take that panic and reject it, to believe in God's goodness and knowing HE will never leave me nor forsake me.  So today, I praised him.  I played drums for worship at church & I even sang today.  Drums are my thing, putting myself in the front so people can focus on me, are not.  So I closed my eyes and imagined I was playing for him, and I was.  And I know in front of God I will never be lacking.  Or maybe the truth, I will always be lacking, but for him I will always be enough.

Worry. Worry. Worry.

Bad things will happen in our lives, that is the way of a sinful world.  But what good comes from constant worrying?  I'm like most mothers, I worry about something bad happening to my children.  I worry about them when I'm away from them and I worry about the things I do effecting them in ways I hope it won't. I worry about our finances, about paying bills, about our car passing safety check.  There's not much I don't worry about but the relief lately has been letting that worry go.  It's natural to worry, but what can that change?  And the things I have never worried about were the things that came true, so maybe that was my unfortunate lesson that regardless of all the worrying in the world it won't change what is happening. So I have slowly learned to give those worries to God, along with all that panic and anxiety.  And yes, I still do worry but to worship Him does far better to my soul than all the worrying in the world.

Anxiety, ahh my arch nemesis.  The bane of my existence.  My own personal demon.

More than panic & worry combined is my anxiety.  Anxiety that I just might never get it right, that anything good that might happen is just a pre-cursor to the bad about to fall down around me.

Anxiety that combined with low self-esteem made for a pretty self hating teenage girl. 

Sometimes I yearn to take it all back, to trust God then like I do now.  To have always been able to put my worth in him, but that's just not how things work. And I can only be very, very, very thankful that I trust him now.  My anxiety still comes, and with it the devil brings his lies.  But now I can fight him, and not let myself believe maybe hurting myself would make it all better.  Or maybe just take away that pain for a little bit.  I adore God.  He is my salvation.  My peace. And wouldn't it be sweet to never have to panic & worry but for now, when I do, I will try my hardest to praise and worship Him instead. 

It's a Girl Raspberry Blondies!

Baby boom time!!!  

I have so many pregnant friends right now all due right around the same time, unfortunately I don't live by any of them so I just have to make do with virtually feeling connected to all of them and watch their bellies grow on Facebook.  I love being due around the same time as people I know just to enjoy being pregnant together, go through each stage together, etc.  It's right around the time when everyone starts finding out the gender of the babies.  One of the funnest parts of pregnancy to me.  

We didn't find out for Oliver but from the beginning my Mommy intuition told me boy and it drove me crazy more than anything to not be able to prepare and choose a name that this time around we knew we would be finding out asap!

So it seems a lot of us are having girls!!!  This is where the cutesy side of me kicks in and I can't stop looking at bows, pink, frilly, adorable-y girls only type stuff.  So far I have 8 friends expecting girls, 4 that have recently delivered girls & just 1 expecting a boy.  As well as a few more expecting to find out in the next few weeks.  So I'm not sure what's going on, maybe the world needs more sweetness or isn't afraid of the hormones but watch out cause the girls are coming! 

Yesterday another one of my friends announced that she is expecting her 3rd girl. 

When I'm pregnant with a girl I can tell because I start craving sweets immediately!  I used to kind of brush off that kind of stuff, like how can you just tell what you're having?  By random cravings and what you "think"?  But after 4 pregnancies I think I can finally say I believe Mother's Intuition is a powerful thing!  

So in honor of the girls.  Sweet things that they are and make me crave and a little pink for fun I baked up these Raspberry Blondies yesterday.  Sweet and a little tart, kinda like my Lily Pax.

These are great to make when your pregnant too, I call them a one bowl wonder.  Only one bowl for everything when baking is a rare thing.  Enjoy! 

Raspberry Blondies

1 cup AP flour

1 tsp baking powder

1/2 tsp. salt

8 tbs. [1 stick] unsalted butter at room temp.

1 cup packed light brown sugar

1 large egg

1 tsp. vanilla extract

1/2 cup almonds chopped

1 cup fresh raspberries

Zest from 1 lemon

[1] In a stand mixer cream together sugar & butter.  

[2] Add the egg, vanilla, lemon zest & salt.

[3] Slowly add in baking powder and flour until combined.

[4] Fold in chopped almonds.

[5] Line an 8x8 baking pan with parchment paper, making sure some over hangs.

[6] Spread batter evenly in pan with spatula.

[7] Sprinkle berries on top.

[8] Bake at 350 degrees F for 35-40 minutes.

[9] Let cool and refrigerate for 1 hour before cutting into squares.

And a side note, I am officially 24 weeks today!

This pregnancy is flying by and I can't wait to meet our sweet little Tulip Bea. <3

Don't tell me what to do [or] why I hate baby sign language.

We have recently been teaching Oliver baby sign language, we went to a free preview class that one of my parenting groups had and we all enjoyed it, big kids and all.

I see the benefits of it, I really do.  It's kind of amazing to see a child that can't talk yet really communicate with you.  The problem is, I don't like being told what to do.  

Not by my husband, not by my kids, and yes I admit it, sometimes not by God.  So while this baby sign language could be an wonderful exploration into how much smarter your baby is then the next, it has become a twisted game Oliver likes to play.

We learned a ton of fruit & veggie signs at the class along with some easy basic like please, thank you, more, etc.  Oliver has learned MORE.  Oh sure, on occasion if he feels like it he will sign "please" and "all done" usually "all done" after he has thrown his plate of food on the floor so it's already pretty obvious.  But "more" is his favorite!  And eat, of course.  

It's a frustrating thing to have a 1 year old follow you around all day long signing eat, more, more, more, more!  Like a 4 year old that asks "Why?" constantly.  It's cute in the beginning, but after about 3 days you're going crazy.

I have no idea what he wants more of?  I ask him and he'll storm to the fridge or go to the pantry and randomly start pulling things off the shelves like Panko bread crumbs & fast acting yeast.  I honestly doubt he wants more of that.  So yeah, at the age of one I feel like he's just messing with me.

And he knows it.

Ollie trying to look innocent after demanding MORE, MORE, MORE! 

He finally conceded that more watermelon was actually what he wanted.  

But darn it my kids are cute & adorable and all that other proud Mommy stuff and no matter how much I might complain I love them more than I could ever imagine. 

So here's a recipe for some fun treats I made for them today, hopefully to take on a  zoo trip this weekend!

Honey Nut-O Treats!

1 cup granulated sugar

1 cup honey

1 cup creamy peanut butter

1 tsp. vanilla

5 cups Cheerios [or generic Toasted O's like us cool Moms do]

[1] Mix the honey and sugar in a medium sauce pan.  Bring to a boil, stirring constantly.

[2] Let boil for about a minute until everything is smooth.

[3] Turn the heat off and add peanut butter and vanilla.  Whisk. 

[4] Add in the Cheerios and stir to coat everything evenly.

[5] Drop spoonfuls of the mixture onto waxed paper and let cool!

I keep these in the fridge cause it's humid here so they take awhile to set up.
Edit: Also I suggest making these pretty small, while the kids liked the taste they are hard to eat!  I would just use a greased teaspoon and make small drops, you will get a ton that way too! :)

Have fun! 

5 in 5. Edition: 2

Again, I will tell you just how much I love an easy project! 

I don't mind elaborate ones as well but it usually helps me if I have most things on hand and I can do them in under 30 minutes, cause that's about as much time as a child under 2 will probably ever give you.

So here's another set!  

1.  Slow Cooker Dulce De Leche

[1] Slow Cooker [2] Mason Jar [3] Water [4] Sweetened Condensed Milk

So easy & tasty!  I used this to top mango cupcakes and stirred it into my iced coffee but it would also be good in brownies or pretty much anything!  Just open up the can of milk, place into a clean mason jar and close tightly, you can also do this directly in the can but it creeped me out a little and you're probably going to want to put it in something else so you might as well do it to begin with.  Put the mason jar in your slow cooker and make sure it is completely covered with water!  Put it on high for 6 hours or low for 8.  The advantage of doing it in the jar as well is that you can see through it and see how dark your Leche is getting.  Yummy! 

2.  Tooth Fairy Money

[1] Dollar Bill [2] Hair Spray [3] Glitter

Our oldest, Lily, just lost her 1st tooth last week!  This made me want to cry and also have slight flash forwards of a teenage daughter and how much I hope God does not show me what I deserve from my teenage years.  We were so excited to do tooth fairy things & make it magical, etc.  Then she told us that her Aunt had already told her that I'M the tooth fairy.  Buzz kill man.  But we went ahead and made it fun, for us, and hoping she might still believe a little bit.  When she woke up the next morning to glittery money and her tooth missing she was pretty amazed. :)  5 year olds are so easy to fool.  Really. 

The money is a lot glittery than it looks in this picture and super simple!  Just spray the bill with the hairspray and shake on the glitter!  It dries really quickly too!

3. Cousin Jaz's Mexican Squash Casserole

[1] 1 Zucchini [2] I can of corn [3] 1 small can of tomato sauce [4] Shredded Cheddar Cheese 

First off, I will say I consider oil, salt & pepper to be freebies.  You will need all of those here!

I can't remember exactly when I learned how to make this but one of my favorite in-laws taught me how to make it!  I know it was a long time ago, maybe when we lived in Guadalupe and Jaz worked at the awesome Hot Dog on a Stick in Santa Maria.  Either way, good memories come with this recipe & I wish I got to see this beautiful woman more often than I do. 

Slice a zucchini in half & then into half moon pieces.  Not super thin, this will cook in a pan and then bake so you don't want it mushy.  Heat oil in a pan and sauté zucchini with a little salt & pepper.  About 5 minutes, add 1 can drained corn or fresh if you have it, even better!  I like a little char on my corn then I add the can of tomato sauce.  Mix well and pour into a baking dish, it's a pretty wet mixture.  Top with as much cheese as you like, I LOVE cheese as you can see.  Bake at 400 degree F just until cheese is melted and it's done!  Andy loves this with rice and pork chops.  It's the Mexi/Filipino in him.

4.  Spring Clean your mattress!

[1] Baking Soda [2] Lavender Oil [3] Mason Jar [4] Sieve [5] Vacuum

I have an obsession with cleaning and I have a really sensitive nose.  Two random facts about me that happen to match up.  I can't stand bad smelling things or just random funk.  We got a mattress from a friend when we moved back here, for which I am very thankful!  I figured a good cleaning never did any mattress bad and the lavender helps promote good sleep.  After we did this our mattress smelled so fresh, ahhh.  Fill a mason jar, with baking soda and about 4-5 drops of Lavender oil.  Shake well.  This recipe made enough to clean my mattress twice, you could do carpets with it as well, etc. And since nothing in here is toxic and even edible I don't mind the kids playing in it while it "soaks."  Use the sieve to sprinkle the mixture over your mattress and let it sit for at least 30 minutes.  I let mine sit for a few hours cause really it can't hurt.  Then vacuum!  If you have a hose attachment that would be awesome, we don't so I just lift the whole vacuum up. 

5.  Make a Happy Birthday balloon number!

[1] Balloons [2] Tape

This one is pretty obvious but still I had never thought of it until I discovered Pinterest, uh-oh.  For Jonas' 4th birthday this year we didn't have a big party like we have had every year before so I wanted to make sure we had different ways to show him how special he is to us & how excited we were for his birthday!  We did this on our living room wall after he went to sleep so when he woke up he was pretty excited.  

Blow up your balloons, how many you need depends on your number, how big you want it, etc.  One multi colored bag from Target was more than enough for us.  Don't blow them up too big otherwise they'll be a pain to stick to the wall.  I taped the base of each balloon and once I had them all in place I used rolls of tape to stick all the balloons to one another, it really helped.

Sow your seed in the morning, and at evening let your hands not be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.
Ecclesiastes 11:5-7

5 Things I miss about California. & 5 Things I don't.

5 Things I miss about California, and 5 Things I do not. 

I miss.

1.  Being close to almost all of my family.  Having my Mom & some of my siblings in the same town as me.  Family dinners on a whim, the kids being able to see my Grandma.  Helping out, family gatherings, BBQs around the fire pit in our backyard.  Coffee and shopping trips with my little sister.  My kids growing up with their cousins. The free baby-sitting.  Oh, the free baby-sitting. 

2.  The food.  In & Out. Chipotle. Not to mention all the places that are particular to Stockton.  Good sushi at Co Co Ro, fried chicken from Manny's California Fresh.  Oh the list could just go on and on.  Being pregnant just makes me want all the good food that much more.  I would kill for a carnitas taco plate from Tepa Taquiera right about now, well maybe not kill.....but stab for sure.

3. Road trips.  There was SPACE!  Lots of it!  True, some places were far.  But we always loved a weekend of packing our van to the brim and going where the wind blew us.  Down the 1 to visit family in Pismo Beach or a little further down to the Santa Monica Pier.  Stopping at rest stops to run around and enjoy being together in our own little contained unit.  Nothing but wind in our hair, good music on the stereo, the sounds of kids arguing in the backseat, sunglasses and the knowledge that we still have hours to go.  Ahhh, my version of peace. 

4. My best friends.  Two women that will forever impact my life.  That taught me what REAL friendship was, after 27 years of living, to have two people show me THIS is what friendship is.  Not someone using me for their benefit, lying to me, back stabbing or generally acting as if all of life is a shitty fucked up high school experience. [Can you tell I didn't like high school?]  Who I rarely get to talk to now with an ocean between us but I know I could call them at anytime with anything and they would be there, listen without wanting, love without judging.  

5. Seasons.  I love anticipating each season as it comes.  Except maybe Summer in the Valley, ok especially not summer in the Valley.  But feeling those first breezes of Spring, opening up all the windows in our house and soaking it all in.  Or when the leaves first turn colors and the air turns crisp.  Each season bringing new things.  Apple Hill in the fall,  Christmas tree farms in the Winter.  Cherry Festivals in the Spring.  I miss it all. 

I do not miss.

1. The violence.  Coming from Stockton didn't scare me.  I wasn't afraid to walk down the street, to play with my kids in the front yard, to go to the movies at night.  Until people started getting shot everyday, for anything, pretty much anywhere.  I'm not a very paranoid person but I did start getting worried that a stray bullet might find me on a bad day.  Scary crap. 

2. The bad attitudes.  Something about people there gave off an air of entitlement.   I know this is a generalization and not meant to be but it kind of got old hearing people complain about how their welfare was cut or they don't have enough money but they were able to sell their food stamps cause they just "have to have their nails done every month."  I'm sure it happens here too, I just don't have to hear about it.  So that helps.

3. The obsession with looks.  Here in Hawaii you will see some big girls in bikinis.  I don't mean that disrespectfully.  I consider myself a bigger girl, but here big girls ARE beautiful.  Not just hypothetically in a song but really.  People are proud of their bodies, or simply just don't care what you think.  That is a refreshing idea.  When we lived here before and I was about 40 pounds heavier and 9 months pregnant I felt perfectly fine going outside to get my mail in a sports bra and shorts because I wasn't afraid of some asshole driving by yelling "fat ass" out there window like they had done to me in Stockton, while I was pumping gas.  Seriously?

4. Black Widows and Snakes.  We just don't have those here.  Oh yes!  It's nice not to think "There's a spider in my house, maybe it will bite me in my sleep and I'll die.  I guess we'll see." 

5. Running into people you know.  Some people might like this, might like reminiscing, talking about the good old days or other such tom foolery.  Not me, I would prefer not to see you unless I make a point to see you.  Most of the times it's just an awkward hello, like "Oh, hi, yeah I used to know you a long time ago but now I really could care less about what you're doing."  It just takes the ease out of that knowing I most likely won't see anyone I know.  Just because we both never left our hometown doesn't mean we have something in common.  It's especially nice when there are people I know if I saw I might have to practice my anger management more than I have worked on so far, so I just might rip their throat out.  Maybe. 

Three Tables Beach: North Shore [w/Grilled Zucchini Roll-Up && Roasted Pepper Hummus recipes.]

At first I thought, why do people care about what beaches I go to? 

But as a Mom I am always looking for things to do with my kids and it really helps if someone can give me the details beforehand, before we trek out there with 17 towels, 4 shovels, 2 coolers, etc. only to find out the waves are too rough, there's is absolutely NO parking,

 or hypodermic needles are hidden in the sand.

Besides that, this is also my personal blog, and I'll write about what I want to write about.  So, yeah.

Spent a great Memorial Day with our friends The Lipka's.  Both have lived in Oahu for almost their whole lives so they know the island a lot better than we do.  We had great plans to go camping above the cemetery in Mililani but after a few rainy days we decided wallowing in the mud didn't sound like much fun.  

We're always excited to try out a new beach,  everyone can be so different it's just amazing to see everything Hawaii has to offer.  The last time we lived here 2004-2008 we didn't really get out enough to just be thankful for what was all around us and it kind of made us go stir crazy, coming from California land of road trips & every kind of climate you could imagine was hard, this time around we decided to not be closed in and explore!

The Three Tables out in the ocean.  You can stand on top of them and the swim out isn't hard at all.

This beach is also located in a fish conservatory so the snorkeling was amazing!

Went for the first time in awhile and it was awesome to see all the Parrot fish, eels, sea cucumbers, coral & let the quickly growing belly float around in the ocean for a bit! 

[Awesome tide pools all around these rocks, Jonas had a blast just walking around this area.]

The Beach 411!

If you are coming from North Shore you will keep following the main road around past Waimea Bay.

Three Tables will be right past Waimea Bay on the left, if you hit the Pupukea Foodland you went too far.  Parking is actually more than some beaches but still not great, be prepared, you might have to haul your stuff quite a ways.  There are bathrooms but they are a little bit down along a paved path, so don't wait till they're screaming "I can't hold it anymore!"

Foodland [with a Starbucks!!!] is super close, less than a mile away, just in case your forgot any essentials.  There are some trees and shade but as always it's good to bring your own, especially with little kids.  The water is really nice, clear and warm.  Calm enough at the sand line and shallow but if you walk far enough out there is a drop off.  

Rock balancing near the bathrooms, crazy to see!

So as promised, here are my recipes for my contributions to the BBQ!

It was a great dish to try there because you can prep everything ahead of time, grill the zucchini and then just smear on the goat cheese & roll!  Just make sure to put leftovers in your cooler right after so they don't go bad.

Have a great day at the beach!

Zucchini Roll-Ups with Herbed Goat Cheese

2 large zucchini cut into wide strips

Olive Oil

Salt & Pepper

Any combo of dried herbs you have on hand, I used thyme & rosemary

1/2 cup goat cheese

1/4 Kalamata olives, pitted & diced

[1] Slice your zucchini into strips and toss with oil, salt & pepper.

[2] In a separate container mix goat cheese with chopped Kalamata olives & herbs.

[3] Grill zucchini for 3-7 minutes each side, depending on thickness of strips and heat of grill.

Once they are tender and can be bent they are done!

[4] Smear goat cheese mixture on cooked zucchini & roll!  All done!  

Super easy, healthy & tasty side dish for any BBQ.

 I also brought some home made hummus, cause who doesn't love eating the day away at the beach?

Soaking up the sun, listening to some good tunes & swimming.snacking.swimming.repeat. 

I'm also always looking for ways to make things we like cheaper, healthier and fresher.

Hummus is one of those things!

Roasted Sweet Pepper Hummus

2 cans garbanzo beans, drained & rinsed

8 mini sweet bell peppers, assorted colors

1/4 cup tahini

1/4 cup olive oil

Juice of 2 large lemons

Sea Salt to taste

Cumin

Smoked Paprika

[1] Roast your sweet peppers, rub them with oil & season with salt.

Set one to the side & dice finely to garnish. 

Roast them in a 350 degree F oven for about 20 minutes or until soft and slightly charred looking.
Let cool.

[2] Drain & rinse your garbanzo beans and put them in a food processor.  

Put a small handful to the side for the top.

We have a Ninja, I use it for everything!  Love.

[3] Add olive oil, lemon juice, salt & seasonings.

[4] Once peppers are cool cut off stems and de-seed.

Throw those in the processor as well!

[5] Blend!  You might like your hummus thinner, chunkier, etc.  This is a recipe that is really easy to adapt to your tastes.  I personally love lemon so I think even 5 juiced lemons wouldn't be too much for me!

[5] Season to taste, blending a bit between each time so you can make sure it's not too salty, etc.

[6] Once your happy with the flavor transfer to a serving bowl, etc.

Top with more olive oil, smoked paprika, & reserved garbanzo beans and peppers!

This taste even better the next day too so it's a great make ahead food.