Starting over.

I chose to start this blog today because I needed it.  I've recently gone through a lot of life changes, which at 28, feel utterly impossible.  I'm pregnant with our 4th child and we have made the transition from Stockton, CA [if you know of this city I'm sure your shocked we're not dead yet] to Waipahu, HI [not as nice as it sounds but Hawaii nonetheless.]

My husband and I have been married for almost 8 years, together for over 10, and we've had some major hurdles to get through in that time, the past year especially.  And as hard as things have been I am trying to change my normally negative outlook on life and try a different approach.  Giving it to God.

Sounds easy, it isn't.  I am a slight control freak that needs order, schedules and lists to get through my easy days.  The theory of letting someone else, someone much bigger than me even, take care of my problems for me sounds a bit ridiculous.

But I'm trying, because I think at this point I'm starting to know better.  No matter what I write down or plan in advance or budget for life will get the better of me.  I cannot be it all.  So I am learning to let it go and let someone more qualified for the job take care of it. 

A craft Lily, 5, made in Sunday School.  The pepper represents the bad we keep in our hearts that only God can get rid of.  Very fitting.

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. 2 Corinthians: 12-19